Life has a way of testing us, sometimes in the harshest of ways. For years, I struggled with what I call “thug thoughts”—those relentless, negative voices in my head that hammered me with doubt, anxiety, and fear. These thoughts didn’t just whisper; they roared, leaving me a shell of myself. I was consumed by anxiety and self-doubt to the point where even daily tasks felt impossible.
The Turning Point
In my book, Peace Beyond the Splinter, I reflect on this battle. On page 57, I recount one of the most persistent thug thoughts I faced: “What if I go crazy? What if I develop schizophrenia?” These fears played on repeat in my mind like a broken record. It felt endless until I stumbled upon a scripture that shifted my perspective:
“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast because they trust in you.”
That scripture became my anchor. Slowly, I started to replace my fears with faith. I didn’t just sit and hope for change—I prayed, journaled, and leaned on God to help me reframe my mindset.
From Surviving to Thriving
Fast-forward to today, I run a successful IT consultancy that contracts with the government. This wasn’t an overnight transformation. Thirteen years ago, I was an employee, working under a boss who profited immensely from my hard work while I barely scraped by. At the time, I was too anxious and overwhelmed to envision a better future for myself. But then, something clicked.
With the encouragement of my husband, Brian, I took a leap of faith. He saw in me what I couldn’t see in myself—a promise, a potential to build something greater. I started my own business, and while the journey has been anything but easy, I’m here to tell you: change is possible.
The Strategy That Saved Me
One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned is this: you can’t let thug thoughts steal your promise. They are thieves, robbing you of your peace, joy, and future. Here’s what worked for me:
- Recognize the Thought: Awareness is the first step. When a thug thought creeps in, name it.
- Combat It with Truth: I turned to scriptures and affirmations to fight back.
- Repeat and Recycle: Reprogramming your mind takes time and persistence.
- Focus on Growth: I committed to personal development, and it transformed my life.
On page 63 of my book, I share more about this strategy and how it helped me rebuild my life. I’m still on this journey, but I can confidently say that subscribing to a growth plan has made all the difference.
Your Next Step
You don’t have to face thug thoughts alone. Whether you’re dealing with anxiety, self-doubt, or simply feeling stuck, there’s hope. Sometimes, all it takes is the right strategy, encouragement, and support to shift your mindset and step into the life you’re meant to live.
If this resonates with you, I invite you to set up a personalized consultation with me. Let’s work together to develop a plan tailored to your challenges and goals. You’re not alone on this journey, and I’m here to help you rediscover your peace, purpose, and promise.
Click here to schedule your consultation today. Let’s take the first step together toward a brighter, more peaceful future.
Your Biggest Cheerleader,
Eve Speaks Team
